chocolatte kisses

2006-12-08T21:29:00.000-08:00

REEELINK!
happydisconnectedemo.blogspot.com (:

2006-11-04T19:44:00.000-08:00

its over, we're over.
and so is this fcking blog.
but ive found a blog that just makes me feel in place.
if you're someone like me; you'd go too.
sam-and-ash.blogspot.com
for emo people.
and for their friends.
i love samantha & ashley.
& you should too.

and remember.
un-link me.
takecare

nikita's bday((:

2006-11-04T02:12:00.000-08:00

YAY the party's like; OVER.
now im damn tired. blahblah.
tammy&ryan showed up;
but not lar* OR sharie. GRR.
anyways...
ALEX THE MAGICIAN came.
err?
i like his shoes tho. LOL!

and the magic words were;
HEY KUCCI KUCCI ???

& he made balloons for everyone!
EXCEPT THE CAMERA WOMAN.
(which happens to be ME. GRR.)

hey; even grownups got ok!!!

& these are some of nikita's good friends...

HANAN.

this is the wonderful MEWTWO cake.
errrr.

umm anyways here's tammy&ryan&amp;me;

YALAH YALAH SWEET LAH. WHATEVER LAH.
THEY CAME HOLDING HANDS; I KNOW. T.T
& well here are me & two of my closest cousins.

ok ok they're hot yayaya. (:

OK BEHIND THE SCENES.

ummmmmmmmmmm thats all lahs.
& me & atiqah(also one of e closest cuzS) were cam-whoring.
(& maybe going to AGAIN)

but i think this is still the best pic yet;
DUCKY ME.
lalala.

ahahahas. anyways about yesterday; i wish we had taken more pics. ):

& lastly;
it's BARBIE!! LOL. ((((((:

CHURCH

2006-11-03T17:24:00.000-08:00

to think i slept at 1 am;
and got up at 8 am;
YAWN.

my sister's party after this. DAMN; i'll be tired.
i'll blog bout that later.
anyways now; about church.

okay it was SO not what i thought it was; but it was okay. the songs were kinda nice; and it was well; fun. but the singer was kinda emo & really deep; and he freaked me out a bit. yeahs.

well bel; or isabel; i think?
she's really friendly. just like lar* said. (:
erm. bridgett?
she's friendly too.
mel is hawt. LOL.
cristy is hawt too!
(no i'm not lesbian)
to be frank; i was actually looking forward to see oreal.
but she didn't turn up. LOL.
well and there's this other girl;
P...P... whats it? um i forgot.
well lar* and i felt that she was into shahari. LOLs!
well it's DAMN OBVIOUS LA!
well lucky him. HAHA.

umm yeahs.
but before church;
i went to lar*'s house. & was having HAIR crisis. seriously.
and i wanted to cut part of my hair.
lar* went; ok ok wait ar.
`cos she was on the comp.
i waited for one hour until 5.30pm.
"lar*; it's 5.30."
and she was like;
"oh ya! let's go!"
and i screamed; "MY HAIR!!!"
and we burst out laughing.
ahaha.

anyways then;
lar*; me; shahari & stefano went to eat.
DAMNIT i was emo.
but i'll spare the details.
(malu lah)
but it went ok in the end.
on the way to church;
bumped into RACHEL; BIXIA & um..i forgot who?
shit; lol.
they were shocked lahhs of course.
but it was funny.
LOL.
okokok.

& in the end;
since we were at yishun;
shahari was going to AMK
& i was going to ADMIRALTY.
sad; right.
but he sent me home!
(i hate him `cos he doesn`t have a curfew. GRR.)
it was kinda sweet la; LOL.
& well yeahs. that.
but the last part at the gate was awkward.
don't worry; NOTHING HAPPENED.
(so much for the suspense; huh. LOL)

yeahs well.
lar* says that maybe we'll go next next week;
ohwell; i'll see.
& thank you to shahari for sending me home.

ok WHATEVER.
takecare ppl!

smile

2006-11-02T01:59:00.000-08:00

im happy.

band.

2006-11-01T22:46:00.000-08:00

had BAND today!
and punishment;
but never mind la.
the first part of the day was..
um; okay lahs.
but the guys were idiots lahs.
they asked us what boxes we wanted;
and well we said;
"five; six; seven;"
and when jasmine asked to settle down;
the guys were like
"ah? i don't know; your box? ah?"

and well kally & me had to take the instruments ourselves;
and make the whole band wait.
MALU LAHS!

anyway i got the tuning note right!
then sheng wei or james tried playing and the sound was damn funny.
cos the instrument needed repairing.
haha; so funny.

then jiayi was tuning qianning;
and alex was walking about.
jiayi went;
"alex! sit down!"
and well; everyone laughed.

anyways;
then learnt a music piece.
damn nice (:

and well; kally was stuck on the first few bars.
but JIAYOU!
you'll make it, kally hunny!
(:

and i got the melody part right! happy happy!
sufiandi laugh at me don't know how many times.
GRR.

but the practice was only two hours.
which is; damn short.
and good. ahahas.
well till here about band. (:

2006-10-31T23:10:00.000-08:00

in her eyes.

2006-10-30T20:48:00.000-08:00

a torn page.
DRIP

She keeps crying. But she doesn't know why. Everything's just so perfect. But everytime; something just has to pop up. Will this simple heart break and melt away like all the others? It's impossible to live a perfect life; she thought to herself. If everything was amazing for a day; she'd kiss the feet of her sworn enemy. If love had a meaning. If love was an essential for everyone; would the world become better? All the shame and all the embarrassment in the world. Mixed feelings. She tried so hard; just to convince herself that everything's going to be okay. She looks at the world; at how people think it's crazy and just fucking stupid to commit suicide. Life's taking a really big turn; and she's done nothing wrong. In the dim light of a candle; she sits alone. Hoping that one day; she'll find her peace and that she'll find her rights. She just lets the day go on; where other people enjoy and scream out loud. She knows people will think she's stupid; and just damn emotional. Some would even think she's just lame; wasting her time. But do they know how this little heart feels. She's trying to change; but she doesn't want to. What should she do. She doesn't want to lose everything that she has.

Which in real life;

is nothing.

If the sun shined on her
She would still be alive
If the rain hadn't been so hard on her
She'd be able to smile
She wasn't a loser
A freak; An ass
She wasn't bullied
Wasn't hurt; killed
If her one true friend
Hadn't been so conservative
Hadn't been hiding all alone
She wouldn't have ended up here
If she had shown up
Instead of hide in a stupid corner
All day long
Just to watch her tears
Drip drip drip

6.51

2006-10-30T02:46:00.000-08:00

today;
was FUN.
LOLS.

um firstly in the morning.
okay this was irritating.
GRRR.
i was supposed to meet FAZ at eleventhirty at AMK station.

then JENNA got bored at home;
so she wanted to tag along.
i waited at yishun mrt station for a good twenty minutes;
till around eleventhirtyfive.

and i thought FAZ was already at AMK.
and since FAZ didn't have a handphone;
that meant waiting for me without knowing where i was.
so when queen jenna finally arrived;
i was about to scold her buckets full;
i got a call from sufiandi.

"Nicole; kau kat mane?"

har? yishun mrt lahhs.
and he started walking towards me.

he was wearing huge sunglasses.
a side-bag; an oversized t-shirt
a pair of jeans and a belt.

errrmmm.
not the usual sufiandi you would see.
but his hair made him look HOT.
but yeah; that's about it.
well even though he looked kinda ~~gay~~,
he looked so much better!
and he was like;

"I saw your other friend."

i was thinking; FAZ?
and the three of us walked all the way to the other end and POOF.
there was FAZ.
oh GOD.
FAZ was just as late!
if queen jenna had come earlier;
we would have been waiting for FAZ.
GRRRR. double GRRRR.

anyways then we borded the MRT which wasn't really full. hahas.
we dropped at AMK;
whereas sufiandi continued to BUGIS.
(so damn fcking fun rightttt??? GRRR.)

so wells i went to school to hand up my SL form lahhs.
then we went to eat; the three of us.
blahblahblah.
then this queen jenna wanted to meet king gabriel chia.
so we met him; and she pang seh me!!!
$$%^^&*#

okay whatever lahs. then me and FAZ went to LARA's crib.
got this STEFANO and his friend lahs. errr.
anyways then they left and we SCREAMED LIKE GIRLS when LARA & STEFANO hugged!!!
(wait; we ARE girls. okay =.-)

then at 3.45pm
there was this reality ghost thing on the phillipines channel.
and well POLA screamed all the way
AND INTO MY EAR!
ahahaha!!!!!
but i still love her and normally i'd get irritated with screaming people;
but her screams somehow dont bother me.
LOLs!
<3 her.

and there was this freakish part where EVEN FAZ screamed!
lol.
so funny sia.

anyways then i had to go home and look at this pic;

potbellied geeks.
it works, doesnt it.
(:

anyways well thats all fer today.
sighs.

ohyeahhs.
gotta tell you bout this particular someone.
i dont hate her la;
(its not about the one i used to write about. its someone else (: )

but sometimes she thinks she's on top of the world.
and she boasts like nobody's business.
LOL.
damn funny how you turn around and people's rolling eyes at her.
HAHAHA.
and well sometimes she disses you.
and she expects YOU to give in.
what the heck?
hahaha.
im not angry at her.
but i think she's a REAL COMIC CHARACTER.
she's like fcking funny lah.
see how she thinks she's the best.
my toes can laugh. (((:
and for people who know who im talking about;
you know what i mean!

so takecare peeps!

moneylahhs

2006-10-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

HELLO.
today went visiting again!
went to nikita's friend's house.
her friend and the sister and the brother so sweet lahhs.
i miss seeing them in primary school.
sob; makes me think of all the fun i had then.
sigh.
anyways nikita's friend;
TOETY(:
was like; playing with beads.
and no one was layan-ing her;
cos everyone was into nikita's gameboy.
so i just sat with her and she asked me to make my own.
so here she is;

and here's the whole thing;

yup. quite FUN lahhs.
makes me think of me when i was younger. ahahas.
anyways yup that's it.
the food was TERRIFIC lahhs.

anyways yesterday went to my mum's friend's house.
err; the void deck was scary.
all the gangs were there;
and they looked at me like donno look at what.
errrr. okay.

and i got obssesed with my camera again.

oh yeahs
i collected my grandma frm the airport yesterday.
ohh i love her soooooo very the much!

and how far would ppl go to steal an NTUC trolley??

sigh.
anyways jenna & kim introduced me to this virtual thing.
club penguin.
heres me fishing.

and here's the bloody irritating shark.

and well this was difficult.

and wells..

yeahs
and heys todays THE ANNIVERSARY.
ILU honey.

takecare peeps.

todaytoday

2006-10-27T20:25:00.000-07:00

wow. today's gonna be boring.
don't know why.
and for those wondering why
"i change my blogskin like changing clothes"
is because i get bored.
yeah? and now i changed it again because
"it's hard to read"

yeahs? =)
uhhuhs.

kk and today i just fell madly in love with JASON EARLES;
from hannah montana.

okay that's just so blur.
but you get who he is.
and we share the same birthday!

ahahas.

ohwells.
alright my dad just got this new pool table. or billard.
whatever.
and well i played with almost everyone.
and well i won twice.
ahaha.

i taught my maid to play thens.

uhh yeahs.
not that all professional.

and i tried to scare the shit out of her.
and make her lose

okay then i ran to the kitchen.
hungry lahhs.

damn "the photographer" who kept taking pics of me.
SCREW YOU. ahahaha.

and chocolate makes me go crazy.
so you know what to get me as a gift. mwahaha.

okay then after another game;
i stopped. tired lah.

and just for the record;

emo~~ass~~

ok ok and as u people know my bestfrend lara (and faz and everyone);
she's always asking me to do these surveys. lol.
but i just wanna say lara; if you're reading this;
I LOVE YOU! haha ok ok

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Name thirteen classmates who comes straight to your mind. Don't cheat and read the questions underneath first.
2. Answer all the questions.
3. Afterwards, tag six people to do the same.

CLASSMATES
1. Kimberley
2. Tammy
3. Jenna
4. Jennifer
5. Ian
6. Ke Jun
7. Amala
8. Shwu Tyng
9. Melvin
10. Nelson
11. Jian Keat
12. Winarti
13. Poh Ee

QUESTIONS
1. How did you meet 10?
1st day of school in the same class. umm yeah.

2. What would you do if you had never met 1?
I would never be happy-go-lucky.

3. What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
Tammy and KJ??? if they dated then Jenna & Ryan would be a couple. (:

4. Have you seen 4 cried?
nope. she's one who never cries. (:

5. Do you think 10 is cute?
yes!!!! ahahaha.

6. How did you get to know 8?
umm don't know don't remember ahs?

7. Would you ever go on a date with number 12?
um no. we're just friends and i'm no more les.

8. What's 7's favourite colour?
blue!! or green. i forgot.

9. What would you do if 6 confessed he/she loves you?
I'll be; "if this happened last time; i'll be jumping. but now, let's stay godsibs." (: im taken lerhs. wahhaas.

10. State a fact about 9.
he's like darn cute lahs.

11. Who is 4 going out with?
BOB; i think. mwahahaas.

12. Who is number 5 to you?
my friend, my classmate, yeah!

13. Would you ever live with 13?
hm, why not?

14. Is 2 single?
um for now yeah. but give her 3 days and she'll go running back to her ex. ((((:

15. What do you think about 3?
she keeps going "KORRR..."

16. What's the best thing about number 8?
She keeps pinching me. and yes, that IS THE BEST THING about her. =DDD

17. What do you like about number 11?
um nothing. he's racist. =P screw you.

18. Favourite memory with 6?
When he told me that loving someone is seeing them happy; not whether they love you too. yeahs.

PEOPLE I TAGGED
1. Ke Jun
2. Shawn
3. Jenna
4. Jennifer
5. Vincent
6. Jovina

AND A SECOND ONE ALSO FROM THIS LARA.

7 random facts about me

- im loving band.
- deyi secondary's fun. (not)
- i would cry everyday if my bestfriends died.
- My BESTFRIENDS for LIFE is none other than LARA and FAZ.
- im fcking emotional.
- i love my special someone.
- i love jason earles.

7 things that scare me

- God
- cockroaches
- losing LARA
- losing FAZ
- losing SHARIE
- losing all my friends
- talking about the pasts.

7 people/things i fancy

- my life.
- my family
- GOD.
- my classmates.
- my bestfriends & friends.
- my boyfriend.
- my handphone.

7 things i say the most

- like what sia
- go and die lah
- i love you
- anything lah. *famous for this*
- up to you. *again, famous for this*
- lek ah. (or relax lah.)
- heys.

7 things i like the most

- handphone
- mp3
- camera
- bed
- chocolates
- best friends
- life

7 people to do this

Sharie
Jenna
Jennifer
Shawn
Ke Jun
Shwu Tyng
Kally

yay done!

2006-10-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

hey!
look what i found!!!
these were done some time ago, around a month or so?
but i forgot all about it. gosh.
they're just vids lahhs.
lol.
not all that great; 'cos i wasn't really in the mood at that time.
well better ones coming lahh.
lol.

here's the bad memories one.
sob.

i did this fer nothing!
they're not changing anymore!
but im like; damn happy.
lara's the bestest best friend a girl can have. (:

and here's the freaking 109 one.

LOLs.
that was crap. but i got loads more to share;
which are, uhm better lahs.
but im too lazy now.

and i played IMVU.

first i was upset acutally.

and this idiot didnt console me.

in the end he came and talked. like, FINALLY.

and well..

um that was weird.
and well in the end.

we amused ourselves;
ohwells. (:
happy again.

vids

2006-10-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

heck of a long post.

2006-10-25T23:14:00.000-07:00

HEY!
this is gonna be one heck of a long post, baby!
=.-
well it is.

let's start way before hari raya.
umm..
19th OCTOBER 2006.

went out with all cousins;
including those who just arrived from america.
first we went to WILD WILD WET.
YIPEE;
but that meant getting up at SIX A.M.
here's my girl EZA;

okay blahblah blublu.
then we were darn tired after that;

yeahyeahyeah
teehee.
then i went over to their place where we ate and got ready to go out AGAIN.
went to esplanade;
where there was a dance marathon or something.

yahahas.
well thats kinda all for that day.
was dead beat.
ohhyeahh the night before;
i fell asleep while smsing shahari.
OOOPS.

anyways;
ummm...
23rd OCTOBER 2006.
went to geylang with my cuz and tammy.
tammy followed us for hari raya, see.

okay nothing much to say;
but now HARI RAYA!!! yay!

tammy was still asleep.
SNORE.

kk anyways; here are some pics.
me and johnathan ai'zuddin;
my american cousin.
i call him DinDin.

mind the unready faces.

umm here's my two other american cousins.

love their accent.
syazwan & syazlan. =D
love 'em.

yupyup.
tamz and me. muacks.

then everyone came over to my house!!!
here's me, dindin and ashyddiq.

well, half of shyddiq.
here's the full.

yeahhs.
then everyone took turns playing PS.

um wells then went to my cousin's house.

okay there's just something wrong with this pic.

~~my constipated face.~~
WHATEVER.
okay anyways got ALOT OF MONEY.
teehheeeeee.

kkk.
YESTERDAY
followed kimmy to do her BRACES!

okay shit-face. (me lar, kim.)
jenna went too!
okay we went to eat at KFC and JENNA AND KIM claims that
I CAN'T EAT PROPERLY, and that MY MOUTH GOT HOLE.
so what did they do?

cheese.
lol.
whatever LAHHH.
k then we went to follow kim do her braces.

and yesterday i came up with the most STUPIDEST idea ever.
walk in the rain at orchard road.
i said;
"WE DONT GET TO DO THIS ALL THE TIME"
and so we did and taadaa.

kim's drying her shoe!

OHYEAH.
now i realise i'm the only one among them not really bothered by my hair.
look.

i left my phone in a cubicle, which i remembered much later and ran all the way back to the toilet to find it safe on the toilet paper dispenser. LOL.

kim's skirt is as ~~short~~ long as jenna's!!

YIPEE. re-united at last. =DDD
i love!!!

that picture reminds me of the game of monopoly in class.

and that's happy jennifer when she bought the house and people went;
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!"

and this photo is dedicated to JENNA TEH ZHEN LE;

yay.
okay i just wanna display some of my emogoth pics that kinda suck.

okay whatever.
takecare peeps.
=DDD

and today im just FUCKING pissed with this particular someone who just made my HARI RAYA and days after that suck to the fucking core. and now lara's changing school. could life get any worse? i feel like screaming again. i don't care anymore. my life's fucked up. because of that fucking someone, my life's just got so fucking shitty. ASSHOLE. shoot your mouth off you ASS. don't tell lies bout people 'cos there's something called fucking karma. I HATE YOU. and because of you relations and ties may BREAK JUST LIKE THAT. oh God, forgive me for my words. but i just can't take it. THATS WHY IM NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ANY FUCKING CONVERSATION WITH ANYONE. fuckfuckfuck. and this has to happen on one of my most happiest months ever. and to make it even more worse, ive been waiting but nothin's happening. details spared; but i will NEVER forget this particular someone who just makes my life worse every single day. i stood up to you, hoping to get my rights. but no, you had to put me through SO MUCH SHIT. and now you're giving me even more SHIT. FUCKU. arent all the trouble you've caused me ENOUGH? what the fuck is wrong with you? you're defenseless, fucker. get that RIGHT. i put up with you to find that you're just a FAKE, like that other person. but at least that other person's nicer than you, you &#&%&$&%*#^Y*$(%@((&@%&$%*@$*%%$*%^@$^ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate you and it's gonna remain this way. FUCKU.

TODAY

2006-10-20T01:28:00.000-07:00

ERGHH.
had POSTEXAM painting activity today lahhs.
and this ryan just HAD to put his black paint at the edge of the table.
where i leaned on without noticing the paint.
and DUH~
my blouse is STAINED.
jenna the great helped me wash it!
so well i went home with a damp uniform.

gosh. she washed it with her legs opened wide cos she was afraid her skirt would get wet.
IIII got wet.

whatever lahh.
then we took a picture!

thank you SO much JENNA!

postexam

2006-10-19T03:27:00.000-07:00

what to say?

today's post exam thingy sucked a little.

matthew goh was up on stage dancing;

during body jam.

can't believe i paid fifteen bucks to see matt goh dance like a mad person.

hm...

could see he liked the salt shaker move. errr.

okay then the O level people had science practical.

yeah. hahas.

SUFIANDI broke his fast.

he said it was "too hot" at city hall. WHATEVER.

haha.

umm; during recess we went CRAZY.

yup; CRAZY.

umm, then we had music appreciation.

LOLs.

BOOORRRIIINNNGGGG.

wasn't listening to them;

instead, talking to kimberley and venus.

where they got to know each other.

awwwwwww.

umm.

tammy is cheating on me!

she was pulled away by winarti for music appreciation.

but we kissed and made up in the end.

(TRUE STORY.)

DOES ANYONE AGREE THAT TIMOTHY(vocals) IS QUITE CUTE;

BUT SOMEHOW LOOKS LIKE A DUCK?

yeapp.

cute duck;

just like ryan!

lol.

ok today syahid kept catching glimpses of us.

like we even care.

so insecure; like A GIRLLLLL.

okay so im just gonna paste the photos in no particular order here;

OMG.

2006-10-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

today's just like so cool lahhs.
im quite lazy to post long long so i'll just make it short.

suddenly
i dont hate izzy anymore!
he came from YCK to ADMIRALTY to fetch me.
then to AMK for my higher malay.
then i didn't know,
but he waited for me for two hours outside school.
then we went back to ADMIRALTY;
where we lived.
and talktalktalk. hung out.. blahblah.
izzy's such a great friend lahhs.
he's paid me back what he owed.
YAY!

and i got my chance to pinch him!
yay! lols.
but no izzy;
i'm not letting you carry my bag for me
=P

takecare peeps. =DD

2006-10-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

GRR.
i couldn't get into the lunchtime concert!
the performing group was "TOO BIG".
whatever lahhs.
so guess what; did the gimmicks thing with the seniors.
like what alex said;
it was like PT.
we couldn't fall in properly;
so we had to go back and fall back in a lot of times.
and of course, there was pumping.
ohwells.
sufiandi got sick. poor him!
OHYAH.
zhirong the logistic took care of him and asked me;
"where's sufiandi's bottle?"
and i gave him a blank look. kally did too.
"he's fasting." i said.
and zhirong was like,
"oh yah!"
LOLLL.

kally and me were damn jumpy lahhs.
LOL.
we had a HUGE fight last month;
and now we're acting as if NOTHING happened.
she can't let go of me lahhs.
LOL.

okay in the morning, we had almost whole day free period.
YAY!!!
broke off into smaller groups lahhs.
and as i was playing cards with tamz;
jenna had to shout
"nicole! somebody come liao!!"
and being me, i quickly turned to the window to see
shahari & ain.
wells yeah. that.
and ian is SO talented.

and i took a pic with SHWU TYNG!!!

the guys were playing i-don't-know-what.

then nothing much happened.

recess time;
i was stuck writing notes for the music scores;
which didn't pay off. GRR.
lara was pissed 'cos her phone couldn't work properly.
she called starhub like a mad woman. lols
the rest played cards.
uhh yeah.
and we actually asked michelle chee to join us.
but (s)he was like, "no need lah".
(s)he wanted to be "ALONE".
but we found out that he wanted to hang out with
the 1/8 girls.
michelle is an ass!

but i have to say something.
i DID NOT SPREAD the rumour!
wrong accusation, chelle!!!
pahh. whatever.
found out that her/his class calls her/him
"C.A.G"
go figure.
and JAMES told us who he liked!
WHOOTS.

ok then saw them again during english lesson;
when mrs ra'uf was using the computer.
LOLs.
yeahh.
cute-ness lahhs.

uhmmm...
IZZY's an ASS.
a BIG ASS.
he didn't turn up again and went;
sorrysorrysorryyyy!!!
im not meeting you anymore lahhs, izzy.
HATE YOU LAHHS.
haha.

todays okay lahh i guess.
takecare yeahhs.

P.S

=P haha.
bleahhs.

TODAY.

2006-10-16T05:26:00.000-07:00

todaytodaytoday.

it's such a, FINALLY a HAPPY DAY!
guess what?
i improved LOADS. lol.

kkay well firstly, my MATH which i used to get D7 for,
for SA2, i got an A2 !!!
SCREAM. ohwells.

then for SCIENCE from a C6 student,
i got a B3 !!!
SCREAM AGAIN. ohwells.

then for ENGLISH.
paper two, highest fer CLASS ONLY lahhs.
we didn't get back paper ONE.
MRS RA'UF said we didn't do THAT well for paper one.
but i happened to bump into MRS RA'UF after band.
and she suddenly shouted;
"YOU DID REALLY WELL FOR OVERALL!
YOUR PAPER 1 IS GREAT!"
SCREAM! lol.
and yes we were kinda screaming YAY to each other.
HAHAH.
she's such a GREAT TEACHER!!! <3

okay forget it.
now about band.
ergghh. i started band, worried.
i didn't bring my band file.
sad case.
then i realised, i didn't need it.
THANK GOD.

learned my tuning note today.
YIPEE! i can play it! lol.
kally and james needed some help.
haha. but they got it in the end.
WEI QUAN spoiled the tuner!
well, halfway.
it just jammed;
so JAMES, a "SMART" kid;
took out all the batteries and put them back in.
and TADAA! it started working again.
happy sec 1s. lol.

but that didn't last. we had BASIC GIMMICKS training.
want to die.
lol. it's tiring; as what ing mei ma'm promised.
positions 1 to 10 ???
my muscles ache.
erghh.

but that's about it.
the HAZE IS BAD!!!
it hurt my eyes and my head.
i had a terrible migraine.
grr.

OHYEAH.
did you hear about the michelle chee thing?
(s)he went up to alicia and went;
"aliciiiaaa... tomoro got band leiiii..."
like those mushy mushy kinds.
ask the band members who witnessed it.
DAMN funny.
kally and me just burst out laughing.
eww. can't believe i used to be with her/him ??????
LOL.
and when i asked her/him about it, (s)he was like;
"she got stead liao la. we just friends luh. dun think..."
yarhh right, michelle. try harder. LOLs.

after band;
me and kally went to the coffee shop,
where all the ex-members were.
okay then i well; uhm, started eating since im nt fasting.
i ate with kally.
then suddenly all the ex-cos came. PAISEH!
there was DANIAL; who was fasting.
so i pretended not to eat. LOLs.
but i thought, "oh whadda heck".
then i ate.
and he suddenly shouted;
"EH! IT'S 6.44!"
and he looked at liang chi and the rest and went;
"EH BASTARD! LITTLE WHILE MORE I BREAK FAST SIA!"
kally and me were laughing, but we hid it lahhs.
then he rushed off home, with kally and me still laughing.
OHYEAH.
today, was talking to sufiandi and kally about someone who we called
ZHI RONG.
we started the topic and i was like;
"i hate zhi rong. i can't believe you used to like him!"
and kally was like;
"eee! ya lorhh! i hate him lah! he's a FLIRT!"
and sufiandi was like;
"who's zhi rong ahh?"
LOL!
who's zhi rong?
GO FIGURE! =P

then after eating i went to take the MRT home.
DAMN the place was crowded!
talking bout mrt...
IZZY apologised for not making it this morning at the MRT station.
dammit, izzy, i was waiting for you!!!
grrh. you say tomorrow, MEAN tomorrow okay?
or i'm gonna scream at you!
(note; izzy's my friend from yio chu kang sec, lols.
he's like one of the bestest friends i could have lahhs.
he's just like lara, tammy, faz, sil, amala, ryan...etc.)

LOLs.
anyway, can say today's one of the greatest days lahhs.
he apologised, i apologised.
<3s
2 weeks, 1 day;
and counting, hopefully; yeahhs?

that's all lahhs.
takecare peepos. =DD
looking forward to BAND[?] tomorrow. lols.
byebye.

...

2006-10-15T22:05:00.000-07:00

if you really like me;
tell me.
if you're really using me;
tell me.
if you really don't love me;
tell me.
if you care for me;
show me.

2006-10-14T19:58:00.000-07:00

heya peeps.
done crying for the night.
and i'm stuck with da flu again.
GRR.

anyways got bored today and decided to do this!

okay and here's the random quotes/phrases:

and here's the "name-the-person".

okay anyway.
yesterday was BORING.
whatever.
okay but today i AM kinda upset, i have to admit.
i don't feel like pouring it out straightforwardly,
but at least sharing my feelings with the world
would help a little.
right?
yeah.

okay so, i'll just keep it quite private lah.
like, not disclosing names and stuff.

okay so here's what happened today.
as usual, i'm waiting for A to sms me.
wait, wait, wait.
never sms.
so i smsed A first.
okay then A said that he/she was busy lah.
so i'm like, "uh, okay. maybe later."
i waited 6 or 7 hours.
no sms. so i decided to sms A again.
and this time, he/she took a while to reply.
said that he/she just finished being busy.
okaaayyy....
so i waited again for A to sms me after i broke my fast.
i waited for quite long, then A smsed me.
i was DAMN HAPPY.
but then, A suddenly said that he/she was busy in
someplace (you don't wanna know where).
so i gave A some time.
and guess what.
A never smsed me back.
heartbreaking.

sometimes i get really upset 'cos i realise i'm mostly the one who always smses first.
since A never seems to sms me.
i don't wanna blame him/her lah.
but c'mon lah.

and A is always playing about, saying that he/she is in love.
yeah it's funny.
but sometimes you seem so serious, i don't know what to do.
and well i know it's kinda "immature" to A if i get upset over things
he/she does.
it's funny but it hurts. it really does.
there, i've admitted.

and A obviously doesn't have time for me.
it's really heartbreaking.

but
THANK YOU WORLD
for listening to me.
hah! i feel so much better.

i think i'm gonna sms A now.
i guess..
sob.

OKAY A replied, and guess what
he/she doesn't seem like he/she was busy!
he/she is just like,
yada yada and talking talking.
"SMS U TMR."
~~what? not even a takecare? a goodbye? an "i love you"?~~
and seriously like i said.
A obviously doesn't have time to talk to me.

i dont wanna think anymore lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
SCRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMM.
MANY MANY thanks to lara for comforting me.

LARA; you'd probably think i'm some kind of crazy person, ~~almost~~ crying over "A". haha. thanks alot, sweety, for comforting me. i just don't know what to do. sigh. =(
i'm just glad you're here. =)

Crazy.

2006-10-14T06:49:00.000-07:00

today was BORING.
whatever.
okay but today i AM kinda upset, i have to admit.
i don't feel like pouring it out straightforwardly,
but at least sharing my feelings with the world
would help a little.
right?
yeah.

okay so, i'll just keep it quite private lah.
like, not disclosing names and stuff.

okay so here's what happened today.
as usual, i'm waiting for A to sms me.
wait, wait, wait.
never sms.
so i smsed A first.
okay then A said that he/she was busy lah.
so i'm like, "uh, okay. maybe later."
i waited 6 or 7 hours.
no sms. so i decided to sms A again.
and this time, he/she took a while to reply.
said that he/she just finished being busy.
okaaayyy....
so i waited again for A to sms me after i broke my fast.
i waited for quite long, then A smsed me.
i was DAMN HAPPY.
but then, A suddenly said that he/she was busy in
someplace (you don't wanna know where).
so i gave A some time.
and guess what.
A never smsed me back.
heartbreaking.

sometimes i get really upset 'cos i realise i'm mostly the one who always smses first.
since A never seems to sms me.
i don't wanna blame him/her lah.
but c'mon lah.

and A is always playing about, saying that he/she is in love.
yeah it's funny.
but sometimes you seem so serious, i don't know what to do.
and well i know it's kinda "immature" to A if i get upset over things
he/she does.
it's funny but it hurts. it really does.
there, i've admitted.

and A obviously doesn't have time for me.
it's really heartbreaking.

but
THANK YOU WORLD
for listening to me.
hah! i feel so much better.

i think i'm gonna sms A now.
i guess..
sob.

OKAY A replied, and guess what
he/she doesn't seem like he/she was busy!
he/she is just like,
yada yada and talking talking.
"SMS U TMR."
what? not even a takecare? a goodbye? an "i love you"?
and seriously like i said.
A obviously doesn't have time to talk to me.
~~a relationship needs care, A !!!~~

i dont wanna think anymore lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
SCRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMM.
MANY MANY thanks to lara for comforting me.

LARA; you'd probably think i'm some kind of crazy person, ~~almost~~ crying over "A". haha. thanks alot, sweety, for comforting me. i just don't know what to do. sigh. =(
i'm just glad you're here. =)

OUTING.

2006-10-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

lemme tell you bout yesterday.
okay was supposed to meet my primary school friends at 4PM at woodlands MRT station.
suddenly at 3PM, this girl called me and asked me to go to the open field at christ church secondary.
the meeting time was 3.15!
i rushed of course, but i got dressed neatly lahh.
so i took the bus to woodlands interchange and text messaged her.
and guess what,

"I'M STILL WAITING FOR THE BUS."

GRRRRRR.
okay. bluhh.

anyway, went out with my best friends from primary school.
nina, my goth sis. and azneil, the emo guy.
nina wanted to be emo, but turned out to be just like me.

yeah? you get it?
uhuhh. so was supposed to go buke after that.
first we went to the open field, where the wind wasn't that strong. sigh.
but it was fun, and azneil got ants in his pants.
WHOOT.
gosh, it's so fun hanging out with them again!
but we're in different schools now, and we have different friends;
(right, tammy&faz&lara&sil&amp;amp;amala&ryan&everyone ?)

oh well, then we proceeded to causeway point, where we walked for about half an hour.
we took a bus there;

too emo.

then we went to north point and reserved seats at sakura. =D
we had one whole hour to go, so we went to the carpark and slacked.

ladidahh.
okay then went to eat.
azneil's food came first, so he ate.
then we were like,
"someone never wait for us".
so he put down his fork and spoon and waited.
5 seconds later, he started eating again.
we gave up. LOLs.
then nina's food came, and i was the unlucky one.
i waited and waited until it FINALLY came.
okay so ate.. lalala.

azneil had to pay $6.80.
i had to pay $5.80.
nina had to pay $5.80 + $0.90(GST)
lols.

then we went to get ice-cream!!!
McFlurryS.
while eating and creating havoc, we walked from northpoint to sun plaza.

we jaywalked.
ran across roads while cars were passing.
yipee.
lucky there were NO POLICE. lols.

okay, then there's this REALLY FREAKY road.
it's DAMN quiet.
so little cars, almost bare. and there we were, walking and laughing.
then we kept quiet.
and azneil suddenly SCREAMED like a girl. (VERY VERY LOUDLY)
nina and me screamed as well.
and he burst out laughing.
okay, pranker. asshole. haha.

WHATEVER.

then we walked lah.
halfway, we saw the 167 bus.
so we decided to take it two stops to sun plaza.
lol.
there we got drinks and we walked one round around sun plaza.
and azneil almost stepped on a FROG.
a poor innocent FROG.
okay eww.

we then took a bus. to admiralty, and went to our primary school famous hang-out, the R.C.
where there's this "mat" who wanted to get to know nina, and i WAS a usual at the R.C, so i said she was taken. yay, i saved her life !!!

(i don't hang out at R.Cs now. bad influence somehow.)

okay anyways, then my mum called and asked them to come over.
then when we reached the condo, their parents called and we panicked.
guess what, azneil ran all the way out of the condo and home just like that.
shock.

nina walked to the bus stop and went home. ladidah.
okay that's for yesterday.

lols.
anyway today?
i checked my tagboard and guess what.
MY BOYFRIEND IS IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE!!!
shin chae gyung, im gonna kill you.

=DD
takecare people.

yay!

2006-10-12T03:10:00.000-07:00

hey peeps!
i got a new "boyfriend"!!!
(ignore the fact that he's only three, so cute and can't talk properly.)

oh well anyways, "boyfriend" came today.
wanted to swim actually.
here he is!

he got attracted to my furby, SHAREEY!
so we played with it and sang songs. =.- okay. yay!

okay so "boyfriend" wanted to go swim.
and guess what.
he wanted to wear a two-piece TOP!!!
scream!
he wanted to wear this:

and i said no.
"boyfriend" gave me this really cute face,
like puss in boots in SHREK 2.

ladidah.
so to stop "boyfriend" from wearing that,
i decided to give him my handphone,
where he took his own photos with;

okay anyways, then we went swimming.
well, i didn't swim.
i watched him and the rest.

then we moved to the smaller pool, where there were steps by the side.
so i sat on the very top step, to refrain from the urge to take more photos of him.
but soon, i ended up on the very last step, nearest to the pool.
and i couldn't resist not taking photos!!!

see? i ended up sitting near the pool!

it was damn hot, and i was wearing triple-layer!!
so i took off the first one. =P

soon, i grew bored.
it grew hotter so i sat under the shade.

30 mins later, i fell asleep.
and someone took this for me;
thanks.

and me and "boyfriend" took a picture together!!
awwh.

okay
STOP.
that's all in my mind. LOL.
now back to REALITY.

in real life, he's my nephew/cousin.
full detailed story spared. =D
close friends should know, yeah?

and in real life, i have a real boyfriend.
who's sixteen, cute AND CAN TALK.

maybe one day we can take a picture together, yeah?

anyway that's all that happened today.
in the afternoon, lara and faz came over to my house!
my mum made something for lara to eat,
while me and faz watched hopelessly.
sigh.
then we made lara's blogskin, TOGETHER.
check it out. LOL.
i think as more pics come, it'll be nicer. =))
so just wait up, aite.
=DD

so takecare, people. love.

WHOOT.

2006-10-11T01:03:00.000-07:00

YEAH! EOYs are OVER.
heard that, sis?
OVER.

primary school exams just started.
hurhur.

okay gonna start this off with lara asking me to do this;

One. Think of 15 interesting things about yourself, they've gotta be true.
Two. Think of 5 false things about yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. I HATE HER!
2. im attached.
3. i love the van family.
4. i love barney.
5. im depressed.
6. i keep thinking he's hiding something.
7. I'm bisexual.
8. I eat every 2 minutes.
9. I live in a condo.
10. I love God.
11. I hate tammy's hair.
12. I love Michael.
13. I burn glue with candles.
14. I love drums and jazz sets.
15. I hate Lara to the core.

Guess which five are fake :D and tag your answers :) it's pretty easy actually!

Which five people should do this?
1. Sharie
2. Tammy
3. Ryan
4. Kally
5. Ke Jun

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

okay done.
now about today. =D

art exam was FUN, okay i drew a huge tombstone with Leonardo Da Vinci's face on it. yay.
i'm aiming for B4. okay fine, C6.
so, i completed after 1h 15mins, which leaves me with 45 minutes staring at the wall.
so i decided to mix up all the paints, and well, paint on my extra paper plate.

the most important people to me in deyi. =D
the rest are important too, but that's a different story.

anyways, after that, the extra paint left was used on my arm!

okay you don't wanna know what i painted. =P
but if you're lucky, one of my friends will tell you.
with my permission. =PP

okayokay enough.

went to j8 to take neoprints with
tammy
lara
faz
amala

there are four neos, but only two could be scanned.
the other two were stubborn.
well i'll try later.

here are the two;

okay lemme backtrack a little.
here is amala in the bus.

our task was to find her a boyfriend.
(ONE MUCH WORTHIER THAN BARRETH OR DEVERAJ.)

okay now back to j8
went to j8 playground and happy me vandalised a playground
FOR THE FIRST TIME.
okay, i'm a little too old for first times, but hey!
i was a good kid last time.
now, oh well.
so me and faz did these;

the most embarrasing thing next is that
lara picked up tammy's green marker and scribbled
"XXXXXX XXXX XXXXXX"

you wanna know what, GO SEE FOR YOURSELF.
=P

okay now personal replies.

LARA;
let's start that stupid "cannot say __" game again on monday! =D
FAZ;
why are you lara's maid and not mine? =P
TAMMY;
you tell me about doing up your hair, but you never do. =(
AMALA;
stop screaming into my ear!!! =D
RYAN;
hit Yu Hong for me, please. he keeps bullying me! =(
SHAHARIE;
well now you know i'm sick. =( and why can't i hurt myself? =(
~~youhurtme=(~~
JOSHUA;
stop covering up for Yu Hong! >=(
DION;
congratulations. =)))))
FELICIA;
congratulations. =)))))
SHAWN;
get OUT OF THEIR WAY, dammit! =DD
KIMBERLEY;
thanks for the testimonial.
JENNA;
360 degrees, don't forget. =P
JOSHUA (sec 2) ;
lara doesn't like you anymore.
yea? =)
HAFIZAH (1o3);
he's your boyfriend, don't deny it. =DDD
STEFANO;
kiss her with her mouth closed. ;)
YARSHINI;
congratulations! =)))))))
SILSILAH;
stop with the LIBRARY, babe! =DD
AIDIL;
you should take faz. =))
HONG BIN;
stop breaking people's heart, a**hole!!!
MICHAEL;
or michelle, whatever. haha. thanks for everything in the past. =D
and well, since we're on good terms now.
YAY!

that's all i guess.
post more later. or tomorrow.
=DD

takecare!
3>

~~and by the way i feel like scratching your face, then kicking your ass because at this point of time, i just HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!~~

LOL

2006-10-10T02:44:00.000-07:00

i love shahari. =D

JERK

2006-10-10T01:17:00.000-07:00

hey! i read this from a diary! doesnt it say alot..? haha. she doesn't write diary titles, so I'm gonna title it, JERK. for her, with her permission.
but im gonna respect her wishes to not let her name be mentioned.
(all translated to english.)

DEAR DIARY

am i doing the right thing? i know sometimes some people would think a girl like me is somewhat 'despo'. IM NOT! IM NOT! IM NOT!!! go to hell. okay he THINKS he can make me happy just by making up and saying nice things to me. i feel like slapping his face and telling him that all that he's said was JUST TO SAVE THE DAY. he doesn't want me for me. all he thinks about are his friends, his ex-girlfriends, and himself. when i get suspicious, then he'll start bothering me and saying all those sweet BULLSHIT "i love yous". cut the crap, asshole. i hate you. i wanted you so much, but now you're just a fake. i wish i could just place a camera on your back to see where you go, 'cos im sure i'll need it, to show you how much i don't trust you. sometimes when you talk to me, i just want to scream "SHUT THE FUCK UP!". your words are too good to be true. i know you're cheating me. if not, just using me. you're using me JUST BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE. AND AT THE END OF THE DAY, WHEN YOU'RE SAD AND ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE NOT FREE, YOU KNOW YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. AND ALSO, YOU USE ME BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT SOMEHOW i'm weak. and you can treat me like a toy. you don't even hang out with me. I'M LUCKY, THAT I HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS TO HELP ME TAKE MY MIND OF YOU. BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, i still love you. and you make me happy. but all around it, you're just a JERK.

@$%&$^*&%#$%$%@%

.
after that, massive vulgarities, that of course, cannot be put here.
i really pity her, but now she's stronger.

hey girl, if you're reading this plus the copy of your diary entry,
i want you to know that you're an amazing person.
i love you for who you are and if that "jerk" can't accept you,
then dump him.
don't worry.
it's not your loss.
;)

ryan&tamz&everyone

2006-10-09T21:18:00.000-07:00

okay.
hey people.
i'm officially SICK.
blahblah. okay, pale face, dizzy eyes and flu snorts.
er.
anyway.

was on the way to lara's house with ryan&tamz, and they stopped by at yoshinoya for food and drinks. there i was, helplessly staring at them eating.

ryan said
"don't look!"
but i can't help it.
don't worry, DIDN'T break my fast. and i took this really moronic video!

okay, so you see how ryan and i fight like little kids.
wahah.
and compare tammy's hair to the past.
yes. she's got a cute fringe now. yay.

okay since this ryan guy calls me his mum.
(whatever.)
i'm supposed to be good to him, or he'll scream
"child abuse!"
that would really catch attention in public, don't you think?
oh well.
so i'm nice to him.

like in the MRT! i let him sit.

and that makes tamz my daughter-in-law. WHATEVER.

next we met lara, faz and stefano.
played TRUTH OR DARE.
thankfully, for me and faz, we're fasting, so NO KISSING!
of course, stef kissed lar. ry kissed tamz. LALALA...
(whatever.)

okay play play play.
then there was this little indian boy, whose pampers was, uhm, err....
full.
so we fled from there. then i had to go home. boohoo.

okay, but it was FUN okay.
yeah. okay i weird here;

okay whatever.

now i'm really disliking these person in my class, who used to be quite close to me.
grr.
don't know how people can stand her...???

now one of my greatest friends are also AMALA.
used to be influenced by "that" bitch.
but now she's not gonna influence me to hate amala anymore. =P

okay anyways,
i'm so happy fer stef and lara. they got together on children's day! aww.
tamz and ryan are almost SIX months now. *envy*
faz' still chasing her HB. lol.
uhm, me?

well a week, 3 days and counting...
and we're still not comfortable telling each other that we love each other.
weird? expect it. LOL.
but i do love him lahhh.

okay...well i'm tired. maybe i'll post later. or tomorrow.
or the next day. God knows. takecare.

boo

2006-10-08T00:56:00.000-07:00

okay today at first was quite bad.
oh well.
my sis took a pic of me, crying.

okay. EMBARRASING.
but this made me stop. no?
haha.

oh well. post more later. =D

ICE SKATING!

2006-10-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

(UPDATED)
yay. today went ice-skating, with faz, tammy and lara!

fun Fun FUN!!!

okay well see, i'm not really good at ice-skating.
so don't expect marvellous moves, aite? =P

okay it started off with LARA AND FAZLINDA BEING TWO HOURS LATE!!!
tammy and i met at one o'clock(rounded up).
and guess what time princess lara and queen faz reached?
THREE O'CLOCK (rounded DOWN)

the deal was actually 12.30 okay.
so there. LATE COMERS.

anyway, as we stepped into the place, of course
the first thing we looked for,
was the price board.

so we paid $45.20 for the group package. UNLIMITED.
yay.

so here is me and lara darling.

mind the sleepy and over-excited faces. =D

okay, so at first, the ice was damn slippery, so i kept holding on to tammy.
taught me how to skate properly.
*blush*
then i got the hang of it. okay here comes the part where i hate lara.

i held on to her, and she skated fast, which caused me to fall.
naturally, i screamed

"LARA!!!!!"

and i got up, with a wet butt, duhh.

okay never mind, haha.
but i still love lara lahh.

okay next, LARA again.
i skated with her, ladidah.
and SHE fell. and pulled me along, so i fell.
then i tried getting up, and her leg just had to hit my leg.
and i fell over her.
and we laughed and laughed and laughed.
yipee, right. hahaa.

okay, then a little while after that, there was re-surfacing time.
the announcement was so funny.

"cocky skaters can continue skating, but it's AT YOUR OWN RISK."

the announcer had a funny accent, that we pretty much made fun of..?
=P

okay so we took some photos while waiting.

OKAY PROOF THAT LARA AND TAMMY JUST HAD TO MAKE FAZ AND ME JEALOUS.
they bought COFFEE!

grrrrr.

well anyways i'm eating now, so i can't complain. haha.

so we went back in after a while. faz and me skated together. yay.
she is SUCH a great person. and she spent her time helping me skate properly.
i love faz. hahaha.
oh well. here's me and her.

and the best thing that happened, was a chain of people who were holding hands, just had to fall one by one. the last guy kicked faz's blade and she fell.
GUESS WHAT HAPPENED NEXT.

yup, I fell. hooray.
then i got up and well, yeah. ahaha.

there were 4 birthdays today and the birthday song was repeating and repeating.
and foam was poofed out.

anyways. yeah.

okay the next time fell was when faz lara and me were skating, and faz and me fell.
and we both screamed

"LARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

uhuh. yeahh.
oh well.
yipee.

a lady took this photo for us.
thanks!

okay and this is the ticket we got.

well overall it was REALLY fun. amazingly fun, haha.
wanna go there again.
since i can almost skate now! yipee.

okay when we got out, the place was REALLY HAZY.
PSI = around 120.

blrrhh.
oh well.
tammy wants to bring ryan the next time.
lara wants to bring stefano.
faz wants to bring H.B.
and i? well they forced me to bring "someone"
but well i don't think he would wanna go..?
oh well. sad case. haha.

anyways
SHAHARI. sorry okay. yeah? (:

overall, today was fun
oh yeahh.
got something to tell yarh.

michelle chee plays with battery-operated chinese opera LANTERNS!
and i was hoping (s)he got burnt.
well, since it's battery-operated with the chinese opera type of songs,
i guess we cant burn h(im)er, right?
yeah well.

heyy by the way.
i deleted my IMVU account. don't know why.
i changed mine.
now it's 'terifakia'.
don't ask.
search me aite. =D

takecare people.
<3 loves.

lyrics

2006-10-06T19:39:00.000-07:00

our seperation has it's faults
but i don't wanna leave it all
so write the letters in teary ink
i just need some time to think
and i just need some time to breathe

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin
so let the phone do it's work
your voice is heaven
but it hurts
your words are memories
but they burn

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby don't say goodbye
baby just close your eyes
and dream,tomorrow's on it's way
so just walk away

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby just say goodnight

okay, that's what i'm listening to now, while i'm posting.
sigh... ?

okay today, going out with the girls to go ice skating.
(don't worry, i WON'T break my fast.)
ice skating at JURONG.

ryan can't go and stef can't go, so yeah.
it's just me and the girls. haha.
okay, this song is just playing and re-playing and re-playing.
replaying replaying replaying.
but it's kinda nice, but nah, I'll change it.

hmm...

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt,she says i've finally had enough.
(repeat)

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the grown?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

okay this is like, one of my favourite songs EVER.
LOLs.

hm, tells a whole different story, huh.
okay well 'till here. i got nothing much to post.
will tell more bout the ice skating.
love. =D

and can anyone entertain me. i'm bored. ahaha.

heyhey LONG ONE

2006-10-06T04:02:00.000-07:00

heyhey people.
HAHAH.

well got kinda a lot of things to say. =P

okay firstly, today simply, I spent the day with
LARA
FAZLINDA
TAMMY
RYAN
STEFANO ..?

okay okay. then first we went to LARA's house. so fun? haha. yeapp.
then well we surfed through SO MANY blogs and friendster profiles. yeah. haha.

me and RYAN fought NON STOP. and he kicked my rib cage area! OWW!!!
TAMZ then hit him and he was, "OW!"
then LARA hit him. I hit him. FAZ hit him.

"OWW!!!"

LOLs.

okay okay then went to meet STEF(?) under LARA's block.
LOLs!

okay wait. let's get distracted a while.

OKAY, sorry i ended up colouring the screenshot. haha.
well, someone asked me if i got jealous.
i'm like "NO!!!"
i mean, why should I, right?
yeahha.,
well people DO get jealous for some reason.
and well, other people who thinks that a person shouldn't get so jealous
for "MINOR" things, should re-consider.
cos whatever that's not important to you
may be important to another person. geddit?
yeah. SO STOP DOING THINGS THAT YOU KNOW WOULD HURT PEOPLE.
=D

so anyways, yeah that was it.
okay i'm kinda going backwards.

lara and the rest who're not fasting, went to STARBUCKS.
evil people.
so me and faz, the fasting ones, went to kiddy palace.
and guess what we saw.

MY HERRRRROOOO!!
barney, of course.

and this is sooo cute!
since my kid side wants barney so much, my friends decided to get me barney for my birthday. YIPEE!
okay, mind my immaturity, but i AM IN LOVE WITH BARNEY.
=D

hope you don't mind. =DD

okay, back to lara's house.
alot of weird stuff happened, and as usual,
me and ryan fought. punching, kicking, blah blah.
yahaha.

then we went on webcam and i kept pointing it to ryan
woohoo!

oh well.
ONE COMMENT.
lara's room is so messy. stop at the door. don't come in till she asks you to.
i'll spare the details. bleah! =P

A LOT OF WEIRD THINGS
came out of our mouths today. yipee. haha.

well, now we're jumping to the part when we're with STEFANO(?)

haha. damn funny.
the phrases mostly used were:
"who started that topic?" -almost everyone?
"and then there was silence..." - ryan & stefano
"okay, let's change the topic." - me (=DDDD)

okay, then we told stef about the guys in our school.
and we mostly used the word "gay" and stef was like

"WHY IS EVERYONE GAY??"

and of course, we burst out laughing.

oh well. michelle chee was one of our victims. yay!
well (s)he's an ass lah. haha.

OH!
tammy told me something VERY interesting today. she said
"you guys look so alike!"

and yarshini(later part of the day) went,
"you guys look so cute!"

DETAILS SPARED.
haha.

okay now..
syahid told me that "she" was very nice to him, but we were nicer.
WHAT IS THAT?
please make up your mind, you lil thing.

the happiest thing today would be FAZ.
i talked more to her today, and she really FINALLY opened up to me alot.
i love you.
well, at least she says she loves me. (wahaha)

anyways
yeah i'm kinda like a changed person now.
i used to be, well, (irritatingly) emo.
without realising it.
eewww. now i'm just making the best of everything.
HAH.

and this week
a lot of people have gotten jealous at things. amazing huh.

okay well, till here.
i'll keep reading LARA's blog. wahaha.
there's bound to be my name. ahaha.
YAY, ALMOST all her posts has my name in it!
ahaha. okay okay, stop. haha.

well till here, people.
takecare.

long

2006-10-05T02:00:00.001-07:00

[updated!]

heyhey.
i'm going to post a long on. harharx.

oh well, firstly, wanna tell you about the j8 trip. super fun. with lara, faz, tammy, ryan, silsilah. and well, me. hahaa. ryan got hooked on playing Xbox. with silsilah. lara kept pushin the reset button and silsilah started whacking her. lol

anyways, guess what i did today!

shop! and..... clean out my closet. grr.

firstly i bought a new bag! for school and maybe for everything.
CONVERSE white baybehh!!

well here's me in my new green top. oh, flaunting it
HEY. IM A GIRL!

anyways, i took some pics while cleaning out my cupboard.
here are my beloved black t-shirts.

school stuff!

here are my skirts and my miniskirts. blah.

pajamas! yay!

the rest?

and these are all.

yeah. YAY.
hahas.
well just living life day by day.
and i tried this on:

don't look at her.
LOOK AT THE ELMO!!!

i got something to say to someone.
and it's finally one not for
"that someone who i always wrote notes on my blog to."
=D
it's to a girl.

DEAR GIRL,

you want me to say im sorry?
IM SORRY. for hurting you. in a way, but you have no reason to blame me. we just told you so that more people won't hate you, and you couldn't accept it. now you're calling all the pais to come against me and my friends? you have no self defense. and NO FRIENDS. face it, loser. i hate you now. even though we said sorry, here's the real thing.
we want to be friends with you, but you pushed us away.
we were concerned, you screamed at us.
how IMMATURE can you get?
you can ask whoever to come beat me up if you want.
but GOD knows whose doing the right thing.
my future, your future. DIFFERENT things.
you can't handle your problems
and you're A FAKE. like ESTHER in that english passage we got.
you put on a FALSE FRONT. you lamo.
1o1 people shouting vulgarities at us doesn't change a thing.
i still hate you and if you want proof, find my table in my classroom.
see what i carved on it.

LOVE,
me

there.

okay back to happy things.
oh well.

oh yeah we came up with this phrase
to help us stay happy.

"jealousy is an evil thing."

yeah now we happy. well ryan, or what the girls call my SON.
*pukes*
is such a moodswinger. ahaha.

but i love him for who he is.
HEYHEY. AS A FRIEND. or.. SON. whatever.
LOL.
oh well, if i really loved him, tammy would punch me right in the face.
knock me down knuckle
kick my ass
and cut my hair.

oh well, tammy's evil. that's why she's one of my girls. =D

that reminds me. that day during PE, we did knuckle pushups on concrete.
DAMN PAINFUL.

then we kinda bullied AMALA to do push ups and she kinda struggled, poor her.
AMALA, im SORRYYYY!!!!

oh well, we're still besties, me and amala. love ya.

oh well i got nothing else to say.
well till here.
yeah.

P.S
i love tammy&ryan&amp;lara&faz&silsilah&amala&shahari manymany. =D

omg..

2006-10-01T02:38:00.000-07:00

okay, today. i admitted my deepest secret to tammy!! scream!

okay, i used to say it with a funny tone, but deep down inside, ITS TRUE.
oh but anyways..

helped my godbro today, somehow.
im beginning to hate that idiot. [not my godbro, someone else.]
GRR.

yahahas.
"michelle" got angry reading lara's post about "her"...

okayokay.. not michelle.
MICHAEL.

after telling him about the movie "michelle chee must die",
he got sorta angry. HAH.

but i apologised, and (s)he apologised.. blah blah.
then today, im still waiting for lara's sweet reply.

awwh. so till here fer today.

love.

a long note

2006-09-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

i got something to say to someone.
i hope you know who you are.

DEAR YOU,

i realise that we've not been communicating that much these days. Even if we do, I feel that you think that I'm not worth talking to, and that I'm pretty "immature". I got kinda hurt when you say something but you kinda mean something else. I really miss you a lot. Maybe I seem useless or nothing to you. So if you do think all that I've mentioned, please tell me.

so I'll stop thinking about you so much . =

today.

2006-09-29T21:54:00.000-07:00

changed blogskin YET AGAIN. in less than 24 hours. amazing.

got tired of the last one so fast, huh.

oh well really lazy to get up today. but had to.
was supposed to rebond hair today. but then didnt feel like it.
later going out to Little India for God Knows What..

hmm...bored.
i don't know why my feelings returned.
ahaha ?

well anyways, we don't talk much nowadays.
kinda upset about that.
'WE' refers to me and 'that' godsib you guys know about la..okay..

yeah.. well other than that, overall im kinda okay.
im super HYPER nowadays.

but the thought of not communicating with you-know-who.
i miss him.

to that 'him', if you're reading this
and you know its you..
please talk to me. you make me smile.

changed the blogskin.

2006-09-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

new blogskin?
still as *yawn*..
guess we broke up huh.
but its for good la.
i talked to you.
you jumped at me.
WHATS THAT?

go away..

...

2006-09-29T01:07:00.000-07:00

...hey people..

i think im gonna post later.

kinda upset now. SIGH.

some know why. thanks.

takecare

yay. happy happy.

2006-09-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

so you DO know who you are (((=

sweet? hahas. yeah i guess.

anyways... today talked to gabriel 404. hahahh scary guy..
since fasting today, played truth or dare in the hall during recess, with my darlings.
HAHA.

and his hair looks nice. HEHE.
tammy said his head was somehow bigger than his body. i kinda agree la.
but that just makes him cuter!! HAHAA.

me and ryan asked the whole class who was more handsome;

JIAN KEAT or HUI QI ?

guess who won...

HUI QI LAHH.

aiyaa.. so lost the bet, cos i bet jian keat would win. HAHA.

well anyways, till here fer now.

im kinda lazy.

and HUNGRYYYYYY

dated.

2006-09-23T03:11:00.000-07:00

hey. i re-read all my posts and i noticed the one dated 25AUGUST2006.

today's 23SEPTEMBER2006. it took me nearly a month to recover.

i'm okay now. =)
adding on to that..

He's my light.
my guide.
i know, you must be thinking it's Him up above.

yeah, it is.

but there's someone else.
i don't know how to put it.
he made me happy when i screamed.
he made me smile at my worst.
he taught me things i never thought he would.

i thank you, and YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

i almost fell in love with his sincerity.

but we're just friends. and that's the way it is.

ithinkwe'rejustfatedlikethat.. =|

you, out there, i really want to thank you.
i guess Allah granted my wishes for someone who could change my life, and make me happier.

you did.

2006-09-22T05:03:00.000-07:00

this is me and tammy hanging out at her house when she was sick. hurhur.

VANS!!!
this is the video we all love!
the daddy we all care for so much.
so much that we gave him the most sour warhead sweet. ((=

THE VANS VIDEOS

2006-09-17T00:36:00.000-07:00

yay! i finally get to put playable ones here. haha.

okay, im a dumbass.

here we go,

silsilah, the grandmother disappears.

AGAIN. part 2.

Baby Lara jumps down in this one.

The Vans Multiply!!

okay those are short.
longer ones are yet to come!!
okay..
hahas

ohyeah another update.
Lara and Fizah(1o3) made a "nenek menopause" song.

.......................weird? O.o

hahah
i'll upload it once i can. okay enjoy!
takecare

SILSILAH DISAPPEARS

2006-09-16T19:46:00.000-07:00

yeah people here you go:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-sVxLoZu97I

silsilah disappears on this one.

OH. love.

2006-09-15T22:01:00.000-07:00

hey peeps. got a new godbro

SHAHARI !

yeah love you loads. hahas...

LOVING YOU.

2006-09-15T21:57:00.000-07:00

spread the hate's getting boring...
lol.

well gotta tell you 'bout my newly formed family. lols ..

love them loads.
first up, definitely silsilah. the so-called "nenek gangster".. ooer.
next lara, tammy's second daughter, and hasanah's brace sister. lol.
next hasanah, as i said, lara's brace sister, and tammy's first born. ooo..
next we got fazlinda, or faz. the baby of the whole family. super cute. hehe.
next kaysha. she's silsilah's next child after tammy. hahahh.
then we got amanda.. the cousin....? ryan's sis..
NURUL's the newest.

OO
not forgetting the bride and the groom.
TAMMY and RYAN. lols.
tammy's silsilah's girl. and ryan's my son. geddit?

yeah you get it.

SPREAD THE HATE....

2006-09-05T20:47:00.000-07:00

wah. so long never update. sigh..

nothing much to say. farewell was DAMN fun. hahas
despite the fact had to sing last part. but ruben was really cool at singing. hahas.
sufiandi did a great job. the whole section did a great job..

OH YAH!!!
sec 1 band camp.
first 4 hours = hell.
next 4 hours = between hell and heaven.
next 4 hours = HEAVEN.

next day?
first 4 hours = heaven
next 4 hours = between hell and heaven.

it wasnt quite bad, was it?
hahas..

well takecare people

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2006-08-25T05:52:00.000-07:00

As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I'm healed,renewed, and find forgiveness find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I've finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again

hey people.. my blog has been dead for a week. well...

i wanna ask you guys this question.
how does it feel to be broken?
everything just doesn't go right ..
like, everyone around you is just doing their own stuff
then you feel so alone.

everyone(except few) is happy.
they got SO many stories to tell.
everytime they go "hey! i tell you something kay!"
then the grumpy cranky ones go on writing
on a piece of paper
"my group members are blady blady blah.."
and they snap all the way.
but most of the people are happy.
they smile till their jaws hurt.

why can't I feel that happiness?
why must I always be the unlucky one?
is this what I deserve?
does God understand what i'm feeling?
or am i just plain fated to BE unlucky?

will my weakness for an hour
make me SUFFER for a lifetime ..

why must all this happen to me?
what did i do?
why must i be so unlucky?

i don't have everything. i don't have anything.
i'm just living my life, the way it goes.
when everyone's are eventful and happening..
mine is just...plain...
IM A FOLLOWER.
you can call me that.

i go with the flow.
i got no opinions.
cos now im AFRAID.
afraid to voice myself out.

afraid that some people will call me lame.
afraid to say the wrong thing.
afraid that i'll suffer even more.

im just not..

not strong enough...

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2006-08-14T04:32:00.000-07:00

you kno i discovered wht friends and families are.

this is me and one of my VERRYYY best friends. the other two are JENNA AND JENNIFER.
this is kimberley.

my lovely dad.

and i LOVE you, grandma. FOREVER.

SPREAD THE HATE 10

2006-08-14T04:27:00.000-07:00

yay! double digits!
spread the hate number TENNNNN

kk. these are the beautiful fireworks day-photos.

oh yahh. and when i was sitting down in the MRT, there was this CUTE CUTE girl standing at the pole beside me
LOOK!

ohyah then was sharing earpiece with sufiandi. then was falling asleep then he played the JAGUAR ADVERTISTMENT one where got the scary scary face come out then got a scream tht give you a shock. HE GO PLAY LORH!
wahlao..hahas kk thts all fer number ten..

SPREAD THE HATE 9

2006-08-14T04:24:00.000-07:00

i think it's nine.. lol.
kk here are the SUFIANDI pics.
(he's just my senior ok?)

vain, right ?

haix. dunnoh luh .
seniors will be seniors .
ahahas.

spread the hate 8

2006-08-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

NDP DEYI MILITARY BAND!

omg. so proud of today. LAST ROUND of the SYF 8 mins. my siti ma'm talked to us before everything and i cried. i am SO gonna miss her. actually i think im gonna miss every senior tht graduates. really. cos through their scolding, our misunderstandings, everything. they were the ones that made my journey in band, never forgotten. on farewell night i think im gonna cry for siti ma'm. she's one of the best seniors you can get.

she makes me happy in band. makes me smile. and she told me. the whole section actually, but i felt it luh.

"NOTHING IS BETTER THAN BEING HAPPY ALWAYS"

siti ma'm, if you are reading this, i wanna tell you tht i love you. and i will NEVER forget you. ever.

for mimi... OOPS. i mean SUHAIMI. haha. im gonna miss you loads too. arhahas.

when my qianning ma'm graduates nxt year, im gonna cry too. definitely. she's my group leader. a really beloved person. tho sumtimes she looks as if she hides stuff frm me. ergh.

yeah thts about it. PHEW.

deyi band rocks to the core. like gurmit shouted "DEYI ROCKS!"
awh. love ya, baybeh!

alrite ppl gtg. NDP was fun. hope my face was caught.
lala. haha

kk gtg bye!

SPREAD THE HATE 7

2006-08-05T08:23:00.000-07:00

yay! number 7 is here!
more uber cool photos here!

caught a pic of sadman, alloy or whtever his name is..ok, let's call him COFFEE MONK. and one of their classmates.

you kno wht. amanda 1/5 is so damn cute. ive realised it ever since i took photos of her!!

this is her with silsilah, another of my really good friends.

ah. JENNA. candid?

mommy and baby? [weird..]

ryan. tammy. hasanah. smile!

k another one of my besties, JENNIFER. i wish i could read as much as her. but i get bored all the same.

tammy, upside down. made her wait painfully there. my bad? AHAHA. evil.

ahaha! kally took this photo of me and jennifer's asses through a library shelf. cute?

and this is the michael im talking about. =DD

SPREAD THE HATE 7

2006-08-02T06:00:00.000-07:00

DION FARTED SO LOUDLY IN THE LIBRARY!!!!!

but anyways these were taken during NAPFA:

SPREAD THE HATE 6

2006-08-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

BEFORE NAPFA. at pizza hut
where dion actually embarrased us.

SPREAD THE HATE 5

2006-07-28T18:51:00.000-07:00

hello. there's NDP preview todayy. scaryy.. will update bout iit later. anywayys these are more of e photos taken!

Ryan enn Tammy!

RYAN THE BIG BLUR

THE RACHEL XUE LI CHAO NGIN FIONA CLIQUE

TAMMY

ERH. TAMMY AGAIN.

ONE OF MY BESTIIES, YU BIN.

SHAWNIE THE PORNIE.

erh..yeah
go ask 1o9 people why. hahas.

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2006-07-27T03:07:00.000-07:00

these are some of the photos taken during the activities of our class(:

LOLLLLL.

ALVIN THE CUTE.

NELSON ONE OF MYY BEST FRENDDS.

JETHRO [jenna's] enn YI MIN[amala's]

DION [kimberley's]

enn these are wongladingdongbrella's photographs(:

enn this is myy fav. part. where hui qi scribbledd "MY FUCKING PROBLEM" enn kimberley added "S"...

iit was part of VE lesson(:

SPREAD THE HATE 3

2006-07-26T05:22:00.000-07:00

SPREAD THE HATE 3

well. havent updatedd since a few dayys ago? LOL. well the newest thiing now iis SCIENCE ELEMENTZ. halfwayy, everything was suckyy but solvedd iin the endd. the compp went smoothlyy. just tht we got certificate of commendatiion. insteadd of bronze or silver...or GOLD.. grh. but never miindd. WE'RE COMING BACK NEXT YEAR.

met a few new friiendds. like hua seng. LOL. oh yeahh enn myy group kept using myy name for stuff, like iif theyy wantedd to ask fer someone's number, theyy wouldd use myy name. GRHH. enn ii met some other friendds like Anusha. enn erh there was this booth about toilet odour.. iit was cute like how theyy sayy why guys toilet smells worst. LOL.

cos girls sit enn guys standd. they pouredd urine on the floor!! EEW.

there was this wine made of fruits thing. got GOLD. sobbs. the wine was GREAT. but shiraz is still better(:

erm.. lets see. oh yeah ecosphere. there was this guy who explainedd everythiing to us about mobilityy of the whole thing, plus alot more. etc etc.... enn got SILVER. *envyy*

there were alot of cool ones too. OH. hua seng's soap booth. LOL. so funnyy. ii think jennifer got impatient with myy questions to them. LOL. hahas. RIGHT IN THEIR FACES, tough questions pouredd out of myy mouth. LOLiieX.

enn so muchh more. iit was so fun.

next year we got ideas like a sweet dispenser. like a merry-go-roundd. tammy saidd i could just pick out a sweet out of a tin enn choose my own flavour rather then looking at the sweet go in a merry-go-round, without choosing the flavour. LOL.

well next year we're gonna get GOLD.

enn iim sure about tht, even iif ii have to eat chicken feathers(:

P.S ii saidd tht iif we got goldd, ii would eat chicken feathers(:

SPREAD THE HATE 2

2006-07-21T01:00:00.000-07:00

spread the hate 2

well today started out kindaa sucky. when all of us didnt click. but became better in the end. YAY.

erh. joshua was nice today. suddenly. then... showedd off my laptop. LOL. no larh. got project mah. so must bring...

erh, then i blurted about slashing to mr wong. LOL. soooo funny. enn he believed. LOL. then one of my friends cried. i see so poor thing sia...

amala was wearing pink things. LOL.

i do NOT like melvin.

erh. thts about it today(:

SPREAD THE HATE I

2006-07-21T00:58:00.000-07:00

spread the hate 1

THE BEAUTIFUL BEGINNING OF THE BLOG!

spread the hate. now its numbered.

want to read a last post? remember the number then go search(:

LOLx. see ya...

FRIENDSTER

2006-07-18T06:57:00.000-07:00

UPDATED FRIENDSTER(:

http://www.friendster.com/drummerette

or just go search

SUICIDAL maniac-

TODAY.

2006-07-18T05:10:00.000-07:00

today...started out a little bit rough. team members were angry cos i didnt make it for elements. so kept quiet all e way. lucky got yu bin...

then i made up by going to the elements thing. and to think, i wanna be in elements project but no time. have to force myself. wht lah...

but in the end got the photo, everybody happy. wtv.

hmm..

then tammy gave me big words to show the 'in depth' of her research. LALAA...lolx.

well thts kindaa all.

woohoo!

2006-07-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

yeah! completed NE show. enn my step 6, to me, was great! both sides were equal! hooray! the rest was good too(: all the primary 5s screaming everywhere! LOLx. hmm.. sadly, i forgot to take myy inhaler from the last last practice so had to go for punishment. run around quadrangle. Luckily only one round. Or my lungs would burst! LOLx.

found a site http://deyiphotographers.blogspot.com . there's some pics of the bandd. there's yi an's face, ting ting, beiyu, korin, alvin, ian, yarshini....enn all those people. so cute! but dont have my face, sadly. LOLx. there were photos of the great drum major and band majors, Jezebel and Shun Wai.

Oh. that reminds me. Jezebel. i remembered her telling us in band camp, "hate me for now..."something something. i remembered being quite angry cos she was so strict. but now i see, it didn't go to waste. enn i think she's quite magnificent(: hm... shun wai was great too. best drum major. couldnt forget that moment...

after band, hung out with yarshini, ter hui, rebecca and damien. OMG. i teased damien enn he didn't get angry! we were like, "YOU'RE SO PRETTY AND SEXY, DAMIEN!" enn he was actually playing with us too. LOLx. well, wht to say? gays can be sexy. LOLx..

well thts all actually. cant wait for nxt week's games(:

LOVE YA DEYI MILITARY BAND

2006-07-11T06:10:00.000-07:00

ME AND KIMBERLEY. besties for life. duh.

TAMMY AND RYAN. a once nice couple. they're nicer now.(:

AMALA. a rejected person in class. but she's NICE. but so =.=

hm...

2006-07-11T06:01:00.000-07:00

today my classmates got over-protective when i grabbed their penknives enn wanted to cut myself. you should see what kimberley does! LOLx. then tammy, her usual crazy self. suddenly jennifer was super nice today. ?????. um, ryan sucks. he is sarcastic in some ways. shawn is funny but a little bit screw loose. melvin says im sexy! oohLALAA. (:

i asked amala about her long skirt enn how she was pulling on them during assembly. LOLx. um, kally is nice. studied together for the first time! yay! dated. then chenfang was super cute today! ooh lovely. MICHAEL IS A FLIRT.

had sectional meeting today. about farewell enn we got some fantastic ideas. just that im thinking about the one person i feel funny about in our section. i get the google bumps. yeah. GOOGLE bumps. denice is funny. enn nice.(: sufiandi threw sheng wei's roll of thread 4 stories down enn pulled up the string slowly. LOLx. sheng wei ran down and took the white toilet roll thing the thread was wrapped around; from the drain. EEWW. then we wrapped sheng wei with the thread and put a tight knot. he took some time getting out of it. LOLx. SO FUNNY.(:

went home, did math enn blah blah. YEAAPP. I STUDIED!

well thats all for now. (:

2006-07-08T19:36:00.000-07:00

now ii wanna talk about this groupp of people under the letter "S". well, iim not going to sayy what iit means lah. but whoever that knos, yoo will understandd. well this groupp of people were once like us, amateurs, young, enn just heck-care. they've been thru whtt we've been thru. but whyy are theyy treatingg us like shit sometimes? theyy can scream at yoo enn give yoo the black face. when yoo tryy to apologise, theyy dont take iit. yoo tryy to make thiinggs rite, theyy turn iit aroundd enn make iit go wrong. yes, we enjoy sometimes. but still... anyway, there are some particular S ppl thtt ii wanna quote. there's this S lady who will scream at yoo, blink her eyes slowlyy iin an angryy manner, give yoo thtt black look enn whatt she sayy can make yoo feel suckyy. whyy must yoo be so sarcastic until we feel like thtt? dont yoo have feelings? enn she has a follower which just happens to be "relatedd" to me somehow. enn the one relatedd to me iis turning into her! theyy don't understandd isit? we ARE sec 1s. we ARE immature, amateur freaks. we feel guiltyy when we make yoo angryy. can yoo AT LEAST ACCEPT OUR APOLOGIES???

thiis iis goiingg to turn VERY suckyy.

OHNO. not bandd.

2006-07-08T18:34:00.000-07:00

iim startingg to die agaiin. LOLx. yesterdayy iin bandd practice iin e hot sun. thenn felt SUPER GIDDY. felt like fainting. but luckily 2 kindd souls DENICE enn MINQI helpedd me. THANK YOO! LOLx. soon enough, we got into an air con room where ii slowly recoveredd. thank God. then we hadd break time. kumar triedd to copyy suhaimi. LOLx. but suhaimi did things kumar couldnt do. kumar triedd copying THAT. made us laugh like hell! LOLx. then we talked to josslyn, bihui enn michelle from piccolo. dunno where Xen go. didnt kno theyy were so nice. esp. josslyn. (: then there was this green spider on venus' hair. someone took a bottle enn triedd to hit it. STOP! well then ii took e bottle enn slowlyy brushedd it off. YAY! nicole the great! haharx. yeah, then from thtt moment, started to dislike someone. irritating lah. enn so flirt. GRHH. LOLx. well thenn the rest of the dayy was nice lah. exp for thtt person. then siti mdm calledd me at night.. askedd about bandd. haharx. priti calledd me. awie calledd me. salman calledd me then hung upp. farhana calledd me. stella calledd me. enn..erm, private numbers calledd me. wahaharX. well thts all.

hate ********

2006-07-08T18:32:00.000-07:00

there's someone ii reallyy dislike. ergh. she's reallyy, a bloodd boiler. well iim not tellingg who but iim gonna tell yoo aboutt her. firstlyy, iif yoo really wantt her to care aboutt somethiing thatts botheringg yoo, she'll just go, "SO?". next, she thiinks you're jealous iif yoo thiink she's "high-class". yeah right. next, whenn yoo don't understandd a problem or a questiion, iif she knows iit, she'll scream at yoo. FUCK LAH. not everyone's as smartt as yoo, FREAKO. next, she acts as iif she owns everythiing enn iif yoo ask her for help, she'll be like, "oh, yoo owe me." FUCK RITE. denn iif people sayy NO, she will beg like a FREAK. enn she takes people's foodd as iif she's not doiingg anythiing wrong. iif people ask her for somethiingg enn she sayys NO, iif we beg, she'll be like, "it's mine. enn ii say NO." eh SHUT UP arh. she wants to be in charge of everythiing. we want to helpp, she sayy no. in e endd, she sayy "yoo all owe me." eh, SEE what yoo do arh IDIOT! she can also hit your headd so hardd that you'll probably cryy. IDIOT. ii do to yoo arh, yoo want anot??? denn she BOASTS. tall lah, what lah. eh fuck lah kae... ii dunn give a damn. oh yearhh...and she goes "i don't care" when yoo tell her somethiing important. eh, get out of this worldd lah idiot. enn ii can't believe datt she hadd a close best fren iin primary school.but now iive learnt. she want to do anything to me,

I CAN DO TO HER.

2006-07-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

ooh. there's a kidd iin me!

sucker.

2006-07-05T04:36:00.000-07:00

there's someone ii reallyy dislike. ergh. she's reallyy, a bloodd boiler. well iim not tellingg who but iim gonna tell yoo aboutt her. firstlyy, iif yoo really wantt her to care aboutt somethiing thatts botheringg yoo, she'll just go, "SO?". next, she thiinks you're jealous iif yoo thiink she's "high-class". yeah right. next, whenn yoo don't understandd a problem or a questiion, iif she knows iit, she'll scream at yoo. FUCK LAH. not everyone's as smartt as yoo, FREAKO. next, she acts as iif she owns everythiing enn iif yoo ask her for help, she'll be like, "oh, yoo owe me." FUCK RITE. denn iif people sayy NO, she will beg like a FREAK. enn she takes people's foodd as iif she's not doiingg anythiing wrong. iif people ask her for somethiingg enn she sayys NO, iif we beg, she'll be like, "it's mine. enn ii say NO." eh SHUT UP arh. she wants to be in charge of everythiing. we want to helpp, she sayy no. in e endd, she sayy "yoo all owe me." eh, SEE what yoo do arh IDIOT! she can also hit your headd so hardd that you'll probably cryy. IDIOT. ii do to yoo arh, yoo want anot??? denn she BOASTS. tall lah, what lah. eh fuck lah kae... ii dunn give a damn. oh yearhh...and she goes "i don't care" when yoo tell her somethiing important. eh, get out of this worldd lah idiot. enn ii can't believe datt she hadd a close best fren iin primary school.

but now iive learnt. she want to do anything to me,

I CAN DO TO HER.

oohLALA.

2006-07-03T02:01:00.000-07:00

ii cannot stopp watchiing the videos iin YOUTUBE. cant believe e other two bandds didnt get iit. READ BLOGS. SEARCH BLOGS. COUNT BLOGS. how manyy of em cant believe we didnt get iit? haix. *SLAP**SLAP*

how can ii still thiink about thiis useless topiic? about useless complacent people?

haiix. yoo kno what ii mean. =D

bowen enn deyii. oohLALAA.

2006-07-01T21:04:00.000-07:00

well...still waiitiing to see the video about whatts SO GREATT aboutt TK? perhapps theyy have a secrett connectiion or theyy justt bribedd e judge or somethiing. hahaxx. still wiishiingg ii couldd have mett e bowen euphoniumiists... haiiz

myy senior's sisterr was once iin bowen bandd, ii thinkk. hahas. well bunch of friiendlyy people, iif theyy reallyy mean whatt theyy sayy. XD

oh well...anyone got SYF GRAND FINALS vid? tell me aite..

byye

GRAND FINALS. SYF.

2006-07-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

yes. of course pretty upset that we diin gaiin e title we wantedd. but!!!!
at least we gaiined a reallyy good friiendshiip wiith BMB. in other words, bowen. theyy seem tuh be rellii niice people. we care for themm. theyy care for uss.[hopefully]. franklyy, there's somethiing fiishyy bout TK. dunn sayy larh. ii really pityy bowen. really. theiir gimmicks were eye-pealers for me. enn theiir sexxyy drum majorette was SO STUNNINGG! ii happened to walk past her when she was traiiniing. she is MARVELLOUS. onlyy that deyi won e best drum major award. YAY DEYI! but iif ii could, ii would give it tuh both deyi AND bowen. iif there was an awardd for gimmicks, bowen would have wonn brilliantlyy. e thingg iis, we dunn miind iif bowen won best bandd. we wouldd nott cryy. but TK. tears spilled everywhere. sobbs. thenn we met bowen people. ii wiish ii could have at least shaked hands wiith the euphoniumists iin bowen. as ii am one myself in deyi. but no tiime. see yoo agaiin, people! hahas.

as angry as ii was alreaddyy, when we were proceediing tuh e buses, a group of TK supporters walked past us enn laughed, somehow sayiing that they're the best. ii was fumiing actuallyy. but ii thot, ii have myy iintegrityy. whyy should ii care about those low people who are so.....diaoz. =.=.

anywayys did myy best.scarf almostt fell outt. sadlyy. sobbs. but whatt iis done, iis done. but ii dunn understand TK's last partt enn theiir new formatiion. some people thiink iits so lame. but ii dunno cos ii havent seen iit. well iits to come soon. hahas. cried myy wayy back tuh school. well, halfway. alex sir cried too. so shocked! denn we talked tuh each other about e sadness we're faciing. iin e end, we stopp crying! hooray!

well, ii was SHOCKED at the cryers.
joiin e club! hahas.

edwin...yun zhun...aidil...venus....yi hui...miqi mdm.....abigail....jovina....farhana mdm....azalea mdm enn more.

ii was so sadd. reallyy burstt iinto tears. first SYF. wantedd tuh leave myy seniors wiith good memoriies iif we won. but ii faiiled.

jovina came up to me enn saiid, "iim just so sad leh!" while cryiing. ii pitied her so muchh. she's been through ALOT. yoo know what ii mean. enn ii mean ALOT.

abigail held hands withh me enn criied. trombonists. me, euphoniumist. BONENIUM. we were uniitedd enn couldd feel eachh otherr. so close.

edwiin gave me a hug. ii hugged aidil. he was cryiing uncontrollablyy. ii couldn't stand tuh see hiim lidatt. he's e best sec 1 ii have ever met. a sec 1 myself, ii felt how he felt. what we've been through TOGETHER.

the rest, especially sec 1s, know what we've been through.

LASTLY. TO ALL SEC 1S IN DEYI MILITARY BAND, YOO KNOW WHAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH TOGETHER. ALL THE SCOLDINGS. PUMPING. SCREAMING. BLACK FACES WE'VE SEEN. ANGRY SENIORS. DISAPPOINTED CONDUCTOR. SAD SIRS ENN MDMS. yes, we have criied as one. ii care. yoo care. we will be there for eachh other alwayys, rite?

GOOD LUCK FOR 'o8 !!!!!

chocolatte kisses

2006-06-26T05:06:00.000-07:00

heyy people. iim back.